Adrian: “Mr. Morrow, the voices are back. They’re starting again.”
Me: “Are they arguing like they were last time?”
Adrian: “Yeah, and they’re getting louder.”
Me: “What are they saying to you?”
Adrian: “They’re telling me to hurt people. They’re telling me to hurt Davion.”
Me: “You know not to listen to the voices, right?”
Adrian: “I don’t know…”
Me: “Is hurting people a good thing? Do you want to hurt people?”
Me: “So if the voices are telling you to hurt people, should you listen to them?”
Adrian: “No, I shouldn’t.”
Me: “Everything’s going to be all right. Let’s go down to the office and get you some help.”
This was Adrian’s first day back in school. He spent most of the Christmas break in a psychiatric hospital where the doctors continued to try and assess his condition. According to his dad, Adrian has shown signs of improvement, although he is still only able to go a few days at a time before he has another relapse of psychotic behavior. The hospital allowed him to go home, as well as start the new semester at school, to see how he would react to his new medication in an academic environment.
So far, he is off to a rough start.
Most people look at the new year as an opportunity to start over, to do things differently, to set goals and make new habits and become the best version of themselves. As they say, “New year, new me.” When I see my students after a long break, I have a tendency to think that they have bought into that motto as well. That they will walk into school as new people. That they will somehow be different. That they will have changed. But it only takes that first introduction in the morning to remind me that people are still people, that kids are still kids, and that some battles won’t be won in three weeks.
Some battles are a part of a lifelong war.
As I embark into 2018, I want Him to be the center of the classroom. I want to place more faith in Christ and less faith in people. I want to have more hope in Christ’s strength and less hope in my ability. I want to trust in Christ more to win the battle and trust in myself less to win the war. I want to love fiercely and impact deeply.
Pray that those things would be evident in the lives of my students this year.